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home [Nov. 14th, 2009|06:59 pm]
We are home safe and sound from Disney. We now have two thrilled doggies and we are settling in for a relaxing evening, after a very busy and fun week.

I hope everyone had a good time while we were gone. :)
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ok it's question time [Oct. 31st, 2009|08:22 pm]
I would like to ask everyone some questions and opinions:

1. What favor (queen's) did you get that you liked the best?
2. why?

3. What type of favor do you prefer?
4. do you prefer functional/useful favors or are decorative ones just fine?

5. What type of favor works the best for you when you fight?
6. Same question, just this time, when you fight with a rapier?

I'm trying to decide what I want to do for favors this year.  I've had a couple of people suggest the belt style (with the pouch feature).  I'm also tempted to do a pewter one, but then the question is what/how to attach it, etc.

I figured if I gathered some feedback that would help me make my decision.

Thanks.
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that was just wrong [Oct. 31st, 2009|03:48 pm]
facebook just sent me a "suggestion" that I should talk to Kolfinna (Kitty), because I haven't talked to her for a while.  What a harsh suggestion, when she passed away with the Swine Flu a few weeks ago.

I haven't removed her from my various friends list, likely so I didn't have to face it, but I think it's time. 

I plan on taking the field some during our reign, S&S, perhaps I can do something at Pennsic in her honor.. since she was an inspiration to many of us.. and we had too few female knights as it was..   I will think on this some and check with those who were closer to her, since I have no desire to step on any toes..
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Happy Anniversary Malcolm!! [Oct. 11th, 2009|01:02 pm]
Today is our anniversary.  Sometimes, it feels like we have always been together and always will.. and other times it's surprising to realize how long it has been.

I was talking to the girls yesterday and I realized in 2 more years, I will have been with Malcolm for half of my life.  It's an interesting thought.

I realized two weeks ago when M's dad came to visit, that we have been together longer then either of our parents marriages.  It's possible that we have been together longer then both marriages combined.  I'm thinking we need one or two more years for that.  But still, it's thoughts like that, that get you thinking.

We have several good friends who have been together just as long, if not longer.  I believe we all break the national "average".   I could be wrong, but it seems on the whole that a good percentage of the Scadians that I know either have a marriage that only lasts for a few years (I believe recognizing that it's not working or they are too different) or they seem to be in it for the long haul, forever..   I'm not finding fault with anyone here, since I am strongly of the opinion that once you realize that you are not good for each other or that there is no working out your differences, that it is better to go your seperate ways.  I don't have the words to explain what I am thinking, but it's interesting.

M. and I have been thru the rough times and the good times.  Right now is a good time, but honestly.. I think sometimes it's the rough times that have brought us so close together.  Perhaps it's the confidence that if you can make it thru those times and still love each other (etc) that it means we can make it thru anything..  M. and I have a number of differences in what we think and believe.  However, for the vast majority of our "core" beliefs, especially on what is "right" or wrong.. we tend to be dead on.  Perhaps that is the difference in relantionships that work or don't.. is finding the person that best matches your core beliefs. 

M. made me french toast this morning (and he hates french toast).  Right now we are watching football.. and later today we are going out for dinner and a movie date.  Sometimes, going thru negative experiences and/or relantionships makes you realize how good you do have it.  :)  It also helps you appreciate your freinds and loved ones.

I hope everyone will have a wonderful day..  I know I am..
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I have 2 bonus days- woohoo [Sep. 24th, 2009|09:21 am]
I really didn't want to deal with traffic, delays or random re-routing of my trip into or from work.  After stressing about it and worrying how else I could get into work, if the ways I normally go are closed or backed up for 45 minutes or more, I realized that I had PTO.  I actually brought stuff from work, home.. so if my boss oks it, I'll do that stuff, so I'll only have to take two half days.  :)

At any point.. I'm home..  Kate's home and doesn't go back to school until Tuesday.  I'm so happy I don't have to worry about G-20 stuff. 

Last night, I stopped by game stop and picked up two games.  One for the wii, since Kate said she beat the games that we have ( like 4 or 5) and one for the Xbox, that is multiple player, so her and I could play some, together.  It seems to make her day when we game together.  I figure she has been working hard and doing more stuff around the house.  A new game, especially a Wii one, will actually encourage her to move more vs. a food "treat". 

I realize getting her into the food= treat is not a good thing, so I'm working on other "treats".   I'm trying to come up with ones that will encourage her to be more active, which is a win-win in my book.  :)

I asked her yesterday to put away the last of her clean clothes (that she washed over the weekend).  SHe had 2 hampers full.  I realized when I got home last night, which was bedtime for her that she hadn't touched them.  I had already given her the games.  I told her when she got up in the morning, she would be emptying both hampers.  This time putting everything away, where they belong.  She would do this before turning the TV on or playing any games.

When I got up at 8 am this morning (the joys of sleeping in, grin).. I saw two empty hampers in her room and she was downstairs playing the new game on her Wii.  I'm glad that she was smart enough to do it this time.  I don't think she would have enjoyed the next step of losing the TV and games for the weekend, especially when she's having a 5 day weekend..   Heh. 

She's actually doing good for the most part.  I have to remind at times, but she's also doing things at times, because she knows it needs to be done.  Mostly, just breaking the last of the bad habits that she learned in the past year.  It's just going to take time and consistency.  She wants people to be happy and she wants to help.  It's just a matter of encouraging the last and nipping any laziness or attitude as it happens. 

She's still a good kid :)  even if I am biased.  ;)
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today [Sep. 13th, 2009|03:13 pm]
So, Kate made french toast this morning.  She did a good job.  I also showed her how to clean up, as she cooked the french toast.  End result, the kitchen is just a bit cleaner then when she started.  I love that, it annoys me when you have a huge mess after cooking.  So, I'm doing the extra work, to show Kate how to do both. 

Of course part of the reason I do it, is I hate waiting for things to cook or for the next step.  Rather then waiting with nothing to do, you might as well clean up as you wait.  It's a win-win.  :)

Kate's french toast got the teenager's seal of approval.  I think she was pleasantly surprised.  I think I need to be in the room with her one more time, as she cooks. If that goes well, she should be set to cook it by herself.  I'm not certain how she compares to other 10 year olds, with the things she's learning.  However, she's enjoying it, doing a good job and taking pride in it.  I think that's all good. 

I'm going to play a bit on one of my games, then I'll go downstairs in about an hour.  That's a good time to start some laundry and play more X-men with Kate.   I'm thinking of getting another 2 person game this week, so we can play it, together. 

Malcolm's out un-winding a bit from the stress of this week, with a motorcycle ride.  When he gets back,  he's grilling some hamburgers.  I think we (kate and myself) may make some homemade desset to go with it. 

It's a good day.  I'm really looking forward to this week.  Sometimes, a bit of change is good to realize how good things can be or are..  :)   Hopefully, I'll get more stuff moved around this week..  as I have time.
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look what I found [Sep. 4th, 2009|12:18 am]
I find it interesting when someone says a Platypus quacks like a duck.  So, I'm helping.. 

"The platypus has a variety of vocalisations. When they are disturbed, they may make a soft growling sound, like that of a puppy.

Despite the misnomer "duck-billed platypus", it does not make a quacking sound.

To listen to the vocalisations of a platypus, click on the related link and scroll down to the relevant part:"

http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_sound_does_a_platypus_make


If anyone is interested, since this seems to be a common misconception in certain circles, if you do a search on what sounds does a Platypus make, you will get a bunch of links, with various sounds that they make.  It's actually kinda cool.

I guess it just comes down to what type of education you have and how gullible you are.  ;)  I got to watch a film on them, while I was in middle school and I remember being entertained that they made sounds like puppies growling.  It doesn't match their exterior.  It's very entertaining to think I learned something in my South Carolina education, that wasn't taught elsewhere.   (because we all know how useful this knowledge is in everyday life, LOL)

So, the lesson for the day, before you quote something, do your own research.  :)
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birthday wishes [Sep. 3rd, 2009|08:24 pm]
Happy birthday Flaxy!!!
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Pennsic photos [Aug. 13th, 2009|10:13 pm]

Here are two pictures that Liam St Liam took at Pennsic.  I thought Loric would like the first one, too.



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It's official.. help needed, please [Jul. 21st, 2009|11:44 pm]
Ok, it's official.. they didn't go with the name I had said, but this one works for me, too.

Please help spread the word.  If you have, please let me know where you've posted it, just respond here, so I don't duplicate anyone's efforts.  They don't want us to clog up Currie Rd, so if we use the parking lot to get there, instead, that should work.

If anyone is willing to help, I would like to confirm several people to help marshal, several to help waterbear and at least one chiurgeon.  They should have water supplies for us on the fighting field, but we need to get the filled jugs to the woods.  I do have some people lined up, but I've learned at Pennsic, it's always better to have some extras signed up, because things always come up. 

It's in the afternoon, but we learned when we did this before, that there is an excellent breeze that goes thru that part of the woods.  We'll meet up at the southern rally point for the war point woods battle.  Depending on how many fighters we have on whether we'll fight there or move in a bit deeper if we have larger numbers.  I'm expecting a smaller number of dedicated fighters, but the more the merrier.  I've had fun just fighting with 4 or 5 people and I know we'll have more then that.  :)

Date: Tuesday Aug, 4, 2009
Where: Woods
What: AEthelmaerc Woods Battle
Time: 2:00PM until they have had enough

They gave me an option of no end time, so I went with that.  I originally planned on two hours, but we'll see who's interested and how long our fighting spirit holds out.  :)   This is not the same as the "traditional" woods battle.. we will allow people to come in late, I'll have one of our senior marshals handle directing that traffic :)  The point being.. we will start fighting at 2 pm.  If you are running late, please still come, since I expect we should still be going until at least 4. 

I'm going to see if I can get some munchies, like pickles and fruit, since that should help..

I still haven't had any luck signing up for our Baronial or kingdom email lists (don't laugh), so if someone could post them there, I would appreciate it.

Thanks,

Tessa
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an interesting link [Jul. 20th, 2009|09:31 pm]

A friend posted this on facebook. 
http://www.theage.com.au/opinion/losing-my-religion-for-equality-20090714-dk0v.html?page=-1

It's a link to an article about Jimmy carter.  He's making a stand.  I believed he had good qualities, but he could have used serious help with charisma, etc.. foreign policy, etc..   However, this article impressed me.  I'm finding myself having more respect for him as ex-president then I did when he was president.

How very interesting.. 
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something cool. [Jun. 26th, 2009|12:20 am]
We get a packet in the mail yesterday, it's from Kate's school.  That's odd, since her report card came a few days ago.  I go in the house and I get a surprise.

They want our permission to test her for the gifted program at her school.  This is the same child who was in a special speech and language problem (due to hearing problems that were finally determined by the doctors to be caused/effected by her tonsils, but years after it effected her speech).  That was a 4 year program, that she did in three . One year was supposed to be repeating 1/2 year of kindergarten and 1/2 year of first grade, before she would do a full year of first grade.  I fought against that, since she had straight A's and was showing signs of being bored, she needed to repeat that why? and won.  Luckily, having Anna as a friend and a co-worker let me know that I had to sign the IEP and I had the right to share my opinion and say what I wanted for her. 

She struggled a bit at first, but after two weeks, took to first grade like a duck to water.  She did so well, they strongly recommended that she be "mainstreamed" in math the next year in 2nd grade (final year of the special program).  3rd grade (mainstreamed in all of her classes), she still had regular sessions with a speech specialist at school, who told me "technically" she didn't still need a speech therapist, since she could say al of the sounds correctly. Mostly a matter of getting her to re-learn some specific words that she learned wrong, when she couldn't really hear some differences. However, she felt Kate could still benefit from the program, if we agreed, she could still justify it in her IEP.  We did, since I'm a firm believer of the earlier her speech is corrected, the less it should effect her as she gets older.

This year, her teachers didn't feel she needed any "aids" or special whatever it's called, to make tests, etc easier.  Her speech teacher said she made all of her goals by christmas time, she can say everything correctly, sometimes she just needs to be reminded to slow down and think before she speaks.  She officially "graduated out of the speech lessons, after that. 

She has consistently made honor roll, usually (I think always) making high honors.  This year (last half) she did it without speech lessons and no "assists".  She performed in two different plays at school and loved it, having a bigger role in the 2nd play. 

She's stubborn, which is good.  Her worst grades are spelling and handwriting, both because she doesn't want to ask for help or she finds it boring.  She consistently comes home and does her homework immediately after school (sorry, pet peeve of mine, I established that "habit" early), by herself.  I used to check it everyday, but I've been working and running errands after work usually, this school year.  So, we kinda fell out of that habit.  So, handwriting bores her, which I understand, but I believe (I could be wrong, but I don't think so) she has a lot more writing to do this next school year (5th grade).  Seeing her handwriting grade on her last report card (she still made high honors, because of her A's) didn't make me happy.  I know that's not a matter of her not being able to do it, it's her not putting the work/effort into it.  Long story short, guess who's spending the summer working on her handwriting, every single day. 

Not much, but a nice, long paragraph.  I figure it can't hurt and the sad thing, after doing it for 3 days, she's already showing some improvement.  This morning she had it done, before I was ready to leave for work.  Out of all of the things I have taught her or tried, the "do your homework first, so you no longer have to worry about it" lesson seems to have stuck pretty well. 

I'm very proud of her for making high honors on her own.  I'm thrilled that they want to test her for gifted.  She loves learning.  I love seeing her face a challenge, especially when it comes to school, since she doesn't give up until she figures it out.  When we figured out she had speech issues and immediately had her tested (hearing, etc) and got her enrolled in a special early intervention program, she kept shocking her teachers on how she kept meeting her goals, early in the school year causing them to rewrite them multiple times thru the year.  Each 6 months saw her make major strides in catching up to where she should be age wise for speech, etc.  I was thrilled when the tests showed her where she should be a few years ago.. and the past two years she's been testing in the top percentages.

She's been doing an awesome job. 

I have no words to describe how I felt when I opened up that letter and saw that they think she is gifted and want our permission to test her for it.  This is the same girl they wanted to repeat 1/2 of kindergarten, etc.  That teacher told me I was making the biggest mistake, because it would be too hard on her and she would end up hating school for the rest of her life.  I think boredom would have done it, since challenges seem to make her thrive.  

She did the vast majority of it herself, thru her own drive, constantly doing her best and trying to do better.  I just want her to do the best she can.  She's had some awesome teachers along the way.. and we've tried to give her as much support as we could (our insurance company paid for speech lessons), outside the school, asking her teachers what she work with her on at home, etc. 

Knowing that she is where she should be and doing well is so very cool.  It makes the years I spent getting her to and from her special EI class, to her speech lesson, etc.. (basically eating up my entire day running around with her) all worth while.  I wanted to give her every tool  (so did Malcolm) I could, without overwhelming her.  I knew the key was trying to get her speech fixed early, the earlier the better.  She still has problems with some words, but usually she just needs a reminder to fix it.

I know first hand, how this can effect you for years, perhaps your entire life, since there are words I still can't say correctly.  I can't hear the difference, but luckily, I know other words that will work just as well, so I avoid the ones I know I can't say correctly.  ;)  It's always bothered me, which I why I wanted to help kate fix hers, since they could be fixed. 

Sometimes, it just takes one letter to make your day (or week).. :)
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Life is too short [Jun. 22nd, 2009|08:51 am]
I tried to think of a different way to say it, but that really sums it up.  Life is too short for many of the petty things we let ourselves get bogged down with.  It's too short to waste the time we have. 

When reading certain posts make you wonder "is that about me?"  When you realize certain posts are made, shortly after you post about something.  When you are constantly getting hurt by posts, meant to hurt (whether someone else or yourself), by someone who can't be bothered to actually talk to you when they are upset about something, that means you will always wonder "is this post about me, too"?

I've decided that life is too short.  I don't need to read posts that will hurt me.  I'm not doing it any more.  It's a simple solution.  There are pros and cons both ways.  I'm tried of tip toeing and always feeling like my words and actions will always be taken the wrong way.  If you are looking for something to get upset at, you can always find it.

I don't need that. 

I'm making changes.  I'm no longer waiting for the "right" moment or even the better moment.  If I want to do something, I'm doing it.  I'm figuring out the path to take to reach the goals that "I" have and I'm walking that path, today.  No discussing or debate. There's time enough during the journey to figure out the better paths, etc. I started making some changes, 2 weeks ago.  Today, it's time for even more changes.

I'm not walking on tip-toe any more.  This is who I am.  I am not perfect.  Sometimes, I hurt those I love, but I try not to.  I'm no longer, not doing the things that "I" need to do for me, because of worry that it may hurt someone else or they may take it wrong.  If you don't understand why I do something, ask..  Odds are, I didn't do it to hurt anyone, instead I had a reason why I needed to do it now or why I chose this instead of something else.  It does not mean that I won't try to avoid the obvious ways of hurting those I care about.  Not doing anything, I believe is the worst choice.

Today, I have had enough waiting and indecision.  It's a day for changes and moving forward.  Life is too short.  It's time to spend the time I have doing things I enjoy.  When and if my friends want to join me, along the way.. all friends are always welcome.  I'm not waiting, no waiting for that "perfect" moment.  I picked it, now to move forward and make the best of it.

I have always done better "doing things".  It makes me happy.  Sitting and waiting doesn't make me happy.. often it hurts.  Time is flying by and I'm missing things that "I" want to do.  I may not be able to do everything that I want, but I can do some of it now.  I can work on more of what I want.  I can write my to-do list of ways to do yet others things, while I'm walking the path.  Accomplishing some things will make others more possible.  "Doing" things will help me get in better shape, so I can do still more.. that "I" want to do..   I would much rather be a "doer" then a "talker".  The time for talking is past, now it is time for doing. 

If y'all thought I made things move before.. watch me now.  :) 
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misc stuff [May. 21st, 2009|11:39 pm]
I get an email this morning.  The subject line is "bunny suit".   I open it up and it says: 

"Tessa,

 Do you own a Pink Bunny suit and Drum?"

It actually took me a minute or so for it to click.  All because I came up with some "ideas" for the white horn and things we could do as an order.  :)

I found out today that the play kate has been preparing for.. is next Tuesday night.  So, no fighter practice for me or M.  However, given his headache and such, giving it another week is likely a good thing. 

In other news, I made a list of my projects for the weekend:

1. finish up library
2. cut out and stencil a bunch of escarbuncle spear pennants.  Perhaps a couple of larger ones that can be used by their Majesties in other ways.
3. trace and paint a number of household pennants
4. trace and paint some pennants for Trimaris
5. order arrow and bolt supplies
6. strip and rebuild what arrows I can from what I have on hand
7. cut out and make a new quiver or two
8. clean off my desk and prepare shopping lists

I doubt I'll get all of the painting done this weekend, but that's ok.. since I can paint as I have time.  I'm also going to have to spend time clearing off the porch, since the table is still buried and there's other stuff that I'll need to move around so I can do the stenciling.  Like hanging up rope to hang up the pennants, until they are dry and I can heat set them. 

Luckily, I have 3 days.  I don't know if I'll have the room, time and stuff that I'll need to get everything done, but I can try. 

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Ok, I'm a lemming flying thru the air!!! [May. 6th, 2009|09:51 pm]
SCA quiz )
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weekend thoughts [May. 6th, 2009|07:44 pm]
This weekend should be interesting, I'll be taking my first protege.  I'm going back and forth on being excited and nervous about this.  I thought two weeks ago about what type of belt I want to do.  Last week, I thought about ordering the leather to do it..and I think the thought immediately fled my brain.  I totally forgot about it until a few minutes ago.

So, I can't think of anyway to get the leather here in time to put together a belt (doing 2 different colors), so I think I'm going to have to punt..   The first thought that popped into my head was using my archer belt, basically "on loan" until I have a better protege belt made.  How bad would this be?? 

I'm going to see if any other or better ideas come to mind tonight. 

This weekend is Crown..  Our KEM was looking for marshals, so I sent him an email telling him I can help marshal one of the lists.  I think it's likely going to rain, so I'm thinking this will be a good time to wear my super spiffy hood that Theodora made w/ the pewter ermine spots by a certain cool archer Duchess (grin).  It's a nice bright blue wool, so that should keep the rain off, right??

I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to say this weekend.  I'm going to do it in the morning, well before the tournament starts.  I'm trying to decide if I want to figure out some specifics or "wing it".  I think it would be better if I had some idea of what to say.  I've actually been thinking about for a while and I think it's making it worse.

I am entertained by one thing.. since after my conversation with him last weekend (well 2, at blackstone), I started thinking about 2 other possibilities for proteges.  Is it catching?  I'm being smart and waiting to see how this first one goes.

Time for pizza....  :)
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I don't think it's meant to be [Apr. 9th, 2009|08:23 am]
Ok, I've been trying to shift up (as in earlier) my bedtime.  I have a bunch of stuff that I want to get done, some that I need to get done by the next day.. so I stay up late, so I can finish it.  However, I'm so tired that I'm dozing off and on while trying to finsh.  Which means it takes me much longer to finish, etc.. etc..   Then I only get a few hours of sleep and the cycle repeats.

Really, I need to be getting to sleep by midnight and getting up around 7 am.  That would give me time to get ready in the morning and to wake up the way I prefer, by spending ~ 30 minutes on my computer checking emails and such. 

So last week, I shifted a couple of times, so I went to bed at 1 am which is good.  Much better then 2:30 or 3 or later.  However, I found when I do that, my body tends to wake up after 4 or 5 hours of sleep.. and going back to sleep, I think I'm in the light sleep mode.  Which means I wake up to noises that normally don't wake me (because I'm in exhausted/deep sleep mode).  Everytime someone goes in and out of the room, clicks on a flashlight, the pups go in or out of the room, etc.. I wake up.  Then it takes me 10 to 15 minutes to try to get back to sleep.. usually just hitting a light doze, before the next sound or entrance wakes me up. Unfortunately, after a couple of these back to back.. it takes me closer to 1/2 hour to get back to sleep.  Although that's still better then one or two more which usually wakes me up for the daye.  I get back to sleep, usually about 5 to 10 minutes before it's time to get up for the day.

Last week, there was enough time for me to hit deep (or dream sleep), the benefits of being an army brat I suspect.. but it meant in that last dream cycle, minutes before I woke for the day.. that I dreamed about Sunny.  It felt so vivid and happy, then right before I woke up I realized it couldn't be real because she was dead..  That's a really sucky way to wake up.

This morning, it took me about 30 minutes after the last wake up, to get to decent sleep.  I remember shifting my pillow, then I was dreaming that I entered a room and I saw a dog laying on the couch (actually 2).. one on a couch by the doorway that I walked thru.  I was surprised because she was mostly white.  I stopped and said "Sammy" and went running over to her.. and she was so happy to see me. 

I was petting her and she was trying to lick me.  It was so vivid that I thought I was there.  Mid-pet I realized that I was dreaming.  I had the thought hit that it couldn't be real, because she was dead.  Right as that thought was registering, I had turned to see what other dog was laying on the other couch.  I saw black and white, but hadn't turned to really see her.. when the thought that it wasn't real fully hit.   I kinda froze.

I was torn between looking and having that brief really happy moment, getting to see Precious again.. and knowing that it wasn't real and feeling like my heart was breaking again.  It felt like seconds, perhaps 30 seconds or so.. and it was time to get up.

Waking up like that, really, really sucks..   It puts my head in a dark place and I don't like it, since all I first feel is my loss. 

So, I'm wondering if that's just a sign that I'm not supposed to get more then 4 or 5 hours of sleep a night??

Right now, I'm so sleep deprived that it's not even funny.  I'm trying to sleep in when I can.. but even with that, I can only sleep so much (7 or 8 hours, if I'm lucky).. and half the time I have to force myself to lay back down for that last hour.  If I try and force myself to sleep longer (when I can), I end up doing a light fitful sleep which I think does no good.

I wanted to shift things, since I need to go to work earlier..  if I go to work earlier, I get to leave earlier, which means I can run my errands earlier.. and still be home in time to spend with people.. and maybe actually work on and finish some projects in the evening, instead of being so exhausted, I barely get the most urgent things done.

This isn't working, so I need to make some changes.  I need to shift things, so I can make it to Bally's in the evenings, etc..  However, if going to sleep earlier means I'm going to dream about those that I've lost, feeling that same heartache that they are gone..  that won't work..  It hurts too much..  Perhaps more so, because there was no warning.

What a truly horrible way to wake up in the morning.  Brief happiness at having a loved one back, just to realize that none of it is real and they are still gone.  That sucks big time.

I need to run.. time (past) for work.
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